Last night I was speaking with a friend and they called someone I love and care about a “fat ass”. I really hate name calling especially by people who have no idea what they are talking about. This person has never been big and nobody in their familyhas been big.  There is so much that you must live with being bigger.  There are  insecurities, promising to quit eating so much, trying to wear clothes that I thought fit and then crying when I cannot get them on. I was teased and made fun of by my brother for so long. Now everytime I look in the mirror I see that girl.  I remember a time in particular wanting to wear this mini skirt and I couldn’t zip it up. I cried and got a really wide belt of my mothers to make a sort of makeshift girdle. It didn’t work. I remeber wearing the baggiest of t-shirts and wanting to wear more. I was ashamed. I tried to diet. It didn’t work. When I was younger family members would make comments, not including my brother. I would cry and swear that I would lose the weight. It never happened.  It took a long time to find out what I should do.  I have tried pills, starving, and alot of other diets.  I have always worked out but I liked to eat too much.  I had to find a way to change  my eating habits for life. 

A few years ago I began to develop stomach pains.  They were horrible and crippling pains.  I started to look at what I was eating.  This is how I stumbled on the South Beach Diet Plan.  I was eating so much, more than I had in a long time.  To my surprise the pain went away.  I never did find out what it was but its gone now. 

Now that I am older I still see that chubby girl above and its hard not to.  It is a health problem.  It should be treated as such.  Those that are alcoholics, smokers and drug addicts think that they have a higher ground but it is the same.  Food is an addiction for some.  I hope that those of you out there that struggle everyday with a food addiction will find relief.  I know that I am not a doctor but I want to preach healthy eating.  Remove your scale and begin to base your happiness on how you feel.  When you begin eating healthy you will begin to feel better.  Promise.